I know what you're thinking

I know what you're thinking - "Oh, man. She's just going to turn her blog into a pregnancy journal." Well, not true. But, yes, today is another pregnancy post. :) I figure, it's about all people ask me about anyway, so they must be interested.

Here's a picture of me today at almost 15 weeks - I'm just starting to show. I'm really surprised at how self concious I am about being pregnant. I was shy at first when we started telling people, and now I have all these body image issues about gaining the weight. I think it's just a phase, and I'm sure come February, when I'm huge I'll think it was all very silly to feel this way.

And here is a little blog post I wrote a while back, before we were telling people about the pregnancy.

Post written July 22, 2009 (4 or 5 weeks pregnant)

I found out I was pregnant last Friday. It was a huge shock. I took the test on a whim, convinced my period was going to start ANY MINUTE, and was so shocked at the positive result that I told Jeremy in about the worst way possible, and took 2 more tests within a four-hour period. Of course they all said the same thing.

I think the reason I was so shocked was because I had heard that when you go off the pill, it takes a while (at least a month or two) for you to start ovulating again. NOT TRUE.

Before I knew I was pregnant, I had felt "normal." Sure, I had been needing to use the restroom in the middle of the night more than usual, and I'd had 2 little tummy aches, but for the most part, my body felt the same.

But the moment that test said "pregnant," I started feeling symptoms. I started being nauseous, peeing every hour, my boobs started hurting, and I was tired. Yeah, right. Like I went from "normal" to all that in 1 day. So I decided that at least at this stage of my pregnancy, I can feel exactly as "out of sorts" as I want to.

That could mean that I feel something (tired) and make the worst of it - "Oh I'm so tired and pregnant, I need 12 hours of sleep tonight." Or I can just be a little drowsy and make it through the rest of my day. Or I could feel nauseous and go sit by the toilet expecting morning sickness to overtake me at any moment, or I could just take a couple deep breaths and get on with life.
I'm sure there will be plenty of time down the road for really being overcome by this pregnancy. For now, since no one knows I'm pregnant, I want to feel as normal as possible. Mind over matter, for now, anyway.

UPDATE: I feel very blessed that I have had an "easy" pregnancy so far - very little morning sickness/nausea, no real issues other than fatigue.